|Got two new rolls developed and now I just need to scan them, I need find a less expensive and time consuming hobby. But it looks like the photos from the Smena Symbol came out rather well, I'm rather excited about that. Either I'm starting to understand these cameras or they're just foul- and fool-proof good old USSR stuff. |
Till then, I still have photos from three other rolls to finish posting.
(Zenit. Fuji 200.)
( +8 - life as it was about three months ago )
|Dear SNCF, I still hate you - the Paris-Marseille edition. |
Had I typed this up that same night, it probably would have been a lot more violent but two days later my general "oh well, it's SNCF after all" mindset that I seem to adopt in order to accept everyday SNCF blunders has made everything more tame...
( too long to read? 4 paragraphs might be. )
As always, it's important to remember that some people have had worse with the SNCF, some peeps had to be in a train for 24 hours over Christmas break when their original journey was suppsed to only last a single night. So yes, happy thoughts, let's look on the bright side, etc.
There are rather bright too...
( +3 - on the table and on windows )
|Every couple of months someone on my FB feed discovers the amazing and wonderful beauty of UFOPORNO! Yep, kiddoes, this is Finnish entertainment at its best. And it has "porno" in the title. And every single time I see it pop up, it's the same headshaking. I leave you to enjoy...|
(btw, not necessarily kid or work friendly!)
And now I leave you with some other UFO related stuff. Clearly not sexy enough.
|So apparently LJ is for "Harry Potter erotica". Totally heard that on Stuff You Should Know's "A Podcast to Remember" episode. |
Actually wait, is Harry Potter still one of the main fandoms out there? I kind of left it back in 2005, if not 2004.
And going back down memory lane...
( +5 - lamps and garden and other stuff )
(Zenit. Fuji 200.)
|I am starting to doubt my ability to ever finish this written part of my thesis. I know what I want to say, I know which results I should include and yet I cannot seem to get it written down the way I see it in my head. I've been rewriting the same parts over and over again, I get stuck at the most improbable bits. I wish I could just copy/paste whole passages of other people's works as I've seen countless others do before me and call it a day and a "state of the art". |
It is scary in the end, trying to convey three years of my life in a single written work. I can already feel that I will have a major post-partum breakdown the moment I defend my work. Three years. At this point that's more than 1/9th of my life. And I am having more and more doubts about the real contribution my work can bring to the field. I can't even rationally tell if they're justified or not, at this point I can only keep on going and keep on believing.
Screw this. No really, screw this. The doubts. The rewriting. The tons of scribbles with random ideas on scraps of paper. The ideas that others tell me to explore. The hope that one day I'll be on that stage, defending the work and it will be over.
And yet the more everything goes on, the more I realise that if I had chosen another path, everything would have probably been much more stable and much more defined... but it wouldn't have been something for me.
|It is a sad day today. Today I was reminded that I have not had any mämmi this year. Yes, I am a huge mämmi lover, especially the sugar-free kind. I can eat it with milk, cream, ice cream, anything. It's like Nutella, I can eat it by the spoonful. |
And this year I am not there for mämmi season. And I do not have the courage to try and make some on my own.
Thank goodness I now know that some K-Super/Citymarkets carry it all year round.
|(Zenit. Fuji 200. Eating grapefruit.)|
|I think I share the same habit with a lot of peeps but tons of others cannot understand us. I hate having icons on my computer desktop. I really, really, really dislike it. First thing I do on a new computer is hide them. It annoys anyone who uses my computer because apparently most people save stuff on the desktop "to find it easily". I'll be honest, I don't see my desktop a lot because I just shift to the program I need with the keyboard (or the taskbar or the taskbar option of a dock). |
I also autohide everything that can be autohidden. Taskbard, widgets, docks, etc. My screen does not need them unless I need them. I bet that would be field trip for a psychologist, trying to figure out just why the hell I need everything set perfectly like that on the screen but when you actually look into the folders, they're not all that nicely cleaned and set. My desk is not spotless either, it's full of stuff. Maybe I should take care of that today actually.
This was brought on by a post someone made of their desktop and they were complaining that they lost some of the icons on there.
Moving on, happy accidents, as I call them. This is from that film where some photos had an anomaly appear on half the frame. The first three have it but then it's miraculously gone, on the photos that directly follow them on the film. The more I think about, the more I figure it must be the lens that was badly attached. Zenit/Kodak200 combo, btw.
( +4 - flowers, walls and the rest )
|You guys! We've been in the dark for all these years but now we can know the truth - the Moomins are one step away from being Satan's concubine! |
Here are the best bits from the "truth" behind those evil Moomins:
Moomintroll is a bastard son of Moominmamma and Moominpappa. Has openly sexual relationship with Snorkmaiden. Sometimes they live in sin together in Moomin house. Troll is malevolent being out of Scandinavian mythology, originally referring to Finnish people.
Yes! Can you imagine?!? Those bastards live in sin together in Moomin house! The horror! And it is self-evident that Finns are related to trolls, why didn't I know this all these years?
Moominmamma & Moominpappa - Guardians of Moomintroll, not married, relationships are unclear. Let Moomintroll share bed with harlot Snorkmaiden under their roof.
The Hemulen - Maybe the most deviant of all creatures in Moomin valley. This seemingly harmless elder chap is truly a libertine and abomination. He lives alone, wears a purple dress, collects butterflies and stamps and like frolicking with younger males of the Moomin valley. This lewd sodomite goes constantly on sex vacations.
Oh hell no. Sex vacations and a purple dress? There is never an excuse for a purple dress!
And the list goes on... Little My is a "thieving anarchist", Snorkmaiden is a "whore", Snufkin is a "revolting freeloading hippie".
If you've never read the books, written by a "worst kind of openly lesbian feminatzi", here is a short description of Exploits of Moominpappa - "Self-explanatory. Stories of young Moominpappa indulging in world of crime, booze and gay sex." I think I'll have to go back and reread the story, I must have missed all the gay sex the first time around.
Ah! The whole thing is just trolling at its best. The whole forum actually takes trolling to a new level.
And remember kids, never touch anything Moomin related without gloves because there is great evil right there!
On a more serious note though, my lentils sprouted beautifully but my millet is taking its time. Apparently millet can be a tricky one, certainly not the one-day easy sprouting that you have with quinoa. But these things need to be learnt, no doubt.
And speaking of food... still the Zenit/Kodak 200 roll from the city center!
( +2 - out and about in the street )
|Day 01 // 02 // 03 // 04 // 05 // 06 // 07 // 08 // 09 // 10 // 11 // 12 // 13: a list of all the places I’ve lived.|
I guess there is a list of sorts in my profile but it doesn't show the fact that overall I've moved even inside cities. So there is L'viv, the Parisian suburbs, the Bostonian suburbs, two locations in Marseille, three locations in Toulon (I've done east, west and center there), the Franco-swiss border, Espoo and two locations in Helsinki, I was at each address for six months or longer. Not bad, not bad.
In other news, here are some shots from a few weeks ago when I went close to the lycée where I spent three years. Still the Zenit/kodak 200 combo.
( +4 - exciting school times, exciting. )
|Day 01 // 02 // 03 // 04 // 05 // 06 // 07 // 08: a picture of the last place I visited.|
The last place I visited would be Toulon or the almost-calanques-forest I went running in. Exciting stuff. But here is something more exciting! The city center! Yes! Going there is a whole adventure!
It's from that overexposed Zenit/Kodak 200 combo.
( +6 - some more central Marseille stuff! )
|Story time! These are the last photos from that roll of Zenit/Agfa100 combo. And that first photo is actually the last one of what was left of the film... because as always I thought I knew the Zenit but I didn't, again. This time I felt the end of the roll, I thought I hadn't forced too much but when I went to rewind, the roll snapped. What did I do then? Of course I should have just gone to a shop and told them to get the film out but no, I had to open the back to see for myself. And so I lost at least two photos. |
Still, we learn from our mistakes and there are only so many rolls I can snap...
( +3 - alas not too exciting )
|Day 01 // 02 // 03 // 04 // 05 // 06: my favorite quote.|
"Which is the better game, the one that seems impossible to clear but isn't or the one that seems easy but that you cannot beat?" - Bishop
Can this really be considered a direct quote? Probably not. It's an idea from the film Avalon by Mamuro Oshii, if you've seen the film you know it's in Polish but the original script is in Japanese, the translation to Polish was done by people who apparently weren't gamers so a lot of the stuff of the meaning is lost if you watch the film without proper subtitles because the Polish really doesn't mean much. You'll see tons of translations everywhere but the idea is the same - what in the end is your type of game? That's applicable to everything in life.
By the way, if you haven't seen Avalon yet, do watch it and then we can discuss the meaning of the film. You can kind of see the atmosphere of it and its different parts here and here and here. In that last video, the guy who plays Murphy (Jerzy Gudejko) comes actually from theater and I love how he's overacting everything, he's perfect for the guy who finally understands that perhaps he had it all wrong in the end.
(as a side-quote, I might add the usual "aide-toi et le ciel t'aidera"/"heaven helps those who help themselves" because a lot of miracles sure do happen and one sure does get lucky when one puts in enough work!)
Keeping with the black/brown and white theme, some Zenit shots with some Kodak200.
( +2 - night shots - hard to overexpose... for once )